The End Is Near

As the end of the year approaches, I find myself yearning even more for summer than I usually do. I don't know why, the future after high school scares me and this next year will signify the beginning of the end. But something about this year killed me a little inside. Something about this year was off for me. Truth is...junior year wasn't what I thought it was going to be. Granted I wasn't exactly sure what it was going to be in the beginning, but it definitely didn't turn out the way I thought it would. I'm not the same person I was 8 months ago. Something inside me is different from what it was before. It's been a year of ups and a year of downs, a cycle much like any other cycle in the world. You can't have the up without the down and for some reason everyone always thinks that the up swings will last forever and ever...I was one of those people. Life was great. It kept getting better, but it can't always be so. A wrench is thrown. It makes life interesting, shows you who you really are. When things don't go your way how you react says a lot about who you are. And now the end of this year is coming to an end. This cyclical year that seems to have, lately, more downs than ups is drawing to a close. Summer vacation is upon us, Senior year is upon us, college is right around the corner. And I'm ready, ready to bust out of this cycle and forge onward. And so we go.